Here we go again...

it never fails.  After every baby I get ancy and do something different to my hair or my overall look to feel better about myself again.  It usually comes within a few months after the baby is born, this time it took longer.  I didn't mind all the sacrifices this time around, not that I really minded them before, but the were welcomed this time.  My baby girl is 8 1/2 months old now and I need to do something.  Usually I drop the baby weight pretty quickly, but this time I am struggling with losing anything.  I still weigh what I weighed when I left the hospital with my Peanut.   My husband tells me everyday how beautiful I am and how much he loves me, but I don't feel beautiful and right now I don't so much love me.  My hair is long, way too long and plain.  It is hard to manage so I just throw it inot a ponytail everyday.  I don't see how my husband finds me beautiful when most days I am unkept.  My hair is NEVER done because it would take over an hour just to do it and I don't have that time and I don't ever do my make up because I don't feel put together with a ponytail.  I know it's all probably silly, but it's where I am at right now.  I have been looking at hairstyles online and I have found a couple that I really like, but they are a HUGE change from where I am now.  I don't know if I have the guts to do it, but I sure would like to.  I have until Thursday to decide because that's when my hair appointment is. HMMMM....what to do, what to do.